My Break

So I sit here hungry, my stomach churning desperate for that knowledge to feed that inner pang. So I sit here, thirsty deeply wanting to quench that fire that is rising from my throat. So I sit here as my legs quiver, fiending for that special touch that will make that insane vibration stop. So I sit here deep in thought thinking that I could just fly so high to the sky and disappear into the clouds. But then I back track, like girl you learn how to walk before you can fly. Gotta learn how to hold your balance before you spread those wings . Gotta learn how to say yes I can and no I won't before you arch your back and prepare for flight. So I sit here and think why can't I let go, why can't you believe, why can't you see. Blinded by the craziness called the mind holding me prisoner to the enemy called thoughts I drown my faith in a sea of salt trying to numb my beliefs, trying to numb my world, but insanity keeps coming after me. Calling my name, pulling my arm, tickling my fancies. Damn you know how I get when you touch me there. I hold the Book close, constantly shuffling through tryna find solace. I get down on my knees constantly tryna find truth. I do find it, but then get lost, then I get loose, and then I lose control of everything around me. So my thoughts are unfinished, cuz my job isn't finished. I've come up for air...damn girl you were there for that long. Jae's on a mission to search for what she is missing.

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