Reassurance

So Easter was a little earlier this year. It sometimes is in March, but for the past few yrs it has been in April. But anyways, after Easter service or during im not sure which order it came in I decided that Sunday March 23rd began marked my New Year. Yes New Years began in January, but I decided that the day that my savior was resurrected is fitting to begin my own New Year. I decided that my life should start over on this day and there are certain things that I should be doing and should not be doing as I began my New Year. I needed to love more of myself, my neighbors and of course my Father. I needed to begin this relationship clean and healthy. I needed to do this for myself and for no one else. I thought about how selfish and how blind I have been up until that day in the shower when I realized the Glory of the Lord and how he has worked wonders in my life. I realized that he has saved me every year these past 23yrs of my life. Every year he has kept me from harm and every year has continuosly answered my prayers and given me things that I know I definitely do not deserve. He has held my hands all these 23yrs and allowed me to go through life in stride. He has taught me lessons, he has given me punishments, but all I have learned from. Yes surprisingly after being taught some lessons, I continuosly go back to square one, but this New Year I decided to hold my ground, look forward and head to my goal. I am extremely blessed and though i may moan and groan about troubles of my life and troubles of the world...things happen accordingly and I am never let down.
Everytime I hear "Now Behold the Lamb" by Kirk that one line sticks in my head and I believe it. "Why You Love me So Lord I Shall Never Know". Time after time I consistently fail him and time after time their He is holding his hands out to me from the ground where I have been knocked and he brings me right back up. I hope now as I am up i stay this way and continue to go higher instead of lower. I hope now as I am up others can learn from my faith and grow by it as well.
Loves